living in the now

dealing with it later. It's been challanging for me to take time off for the baby. Obivously I love the time I have right now, spending all day with the little guy. He's already grown so much and he's only a month old. however, it's put a financial strain on our household and we're just trying to find a balance with that.

I've had to relax a little and accept that we might have to go into some credit card debit until I get back to work and can pay it off. Hospital stays aren't cheap, but well worth it. For what we got to come home with, it was a steal! I've had to swallow my pride a bit in realizing debit doesn't make you a bad person, it's how you handle your debit that makes you a good person.

Two weeks left of my leave and then I will have to start thinking of other people watching MY son. Not that I'm worried, my mom raised 3 children, my mother-in-law basically raised 10-12 children, my husband loves his son to death...but they're not me. But they love Kamu, so I know he's in good hands.

keep on keeping on

it's amazing how each week I feel better, stronger, more like myself. The more I get into my routine and life returns to "normal" the more I realize how out of wack I was. My son is great. I'm pretty sure he laughed today, and I wasn't the only person who thought so. Of course the other person was my mother so it's not like she's unbiased!

I have a wonderful calm in my life right now...I know it's God, because I can think of a laundry list of reasons why I should be stressed. I can't wait for Sunday, our first Easter!

The Lord has risen, he has risen indeed