I can't believe how much time has elapsed since my last blog. My son has grown so much and it's been amazing to watch how everyday he grows into his own. I have returned to work, which wasn't as hard as I thought it would be. Turned in my two week notice, which came and went with little to do. And will start my new job on Monday. I am excited for the future, I'm excited to realize that I am an adult. My work clothes will differ from my weekend clothes. I will have a weekend again.
It's amazing how God worked things out, I thought the job had been filled by someone else, and just as I was about to begin my hunt again, I got the call. There are moments I want to panic about the future, budgeting for that future, my work schedule, going to Oahu for a week of training, and then I just tell myself: right when I was reaching the breaking point, God provided. I'm not saying every breaking point ends with success for me, but the continual lesson that God truly does care about his kids, and wants to take care of them. It has nothing to do with worthiness, or anything I've done, but because he is great.
30 May 2009
07 May 2009
Time flies
I can't believe it's already May 7th. My first mother's day is coming up. That seems surreal because it's hard to imagine my life without Kamu so it's weird to think that there have been 26 mother's day where I didn't think how it related to me.
I appreciate my mom more now, and I've only been a mom for 7 weeks. Not for the obvious things like lack of sleep and sacrifices of the everyday, but the bigger ones that go unnoticed. I appreciate the fact that a well educated woman with potentials to be successful chose my sister and I first. My thoughts of being some big wig when I was leave college don't really matter as much. My thoughts about my job are: does it pay the bills, help us save something, and can it be flexible so I'm there for my son? I appreciate that my mom put her whole life on hold to take care of her kids. Sure she does things that she likes, but I realize in the past year my mom has started hobbies. She is learning to play the ukulele and she's taking hula lessons and I realize it wasn't that she didn't want to do that before, but she chose not to because she could spend her time with or helping her kids.
I hope I can be as good of a mom as mine is. I hope in 27yrs from now my son will look back and say my mom is all right by me.
I appreciate my mom more now, and I've only been a mom for 7 weeks. Not for the obvious things like lack of sleep and sacrifices of the everyday, but the bigger ones that go unnoticed. I appreciate the fact that a well educated woman with potentials to be successful chose my sister and I first. My thoughts of being some big wig when I was leave college don't really matter as much. My thoughts about my job are: does it pay the bills, help us save something, and can it be flexible so I'm there for my son? I appreciate that my mom put her whole life on hold to take care of her kids. Sure she does things that she likes, but I realize in the past year my mom has started hobbies. She is learning to play the ukulele and she's taking hula lessons and I realize it wasn't that she didn't want to do that before, but she chose not to because she could spend her time with or helping her kids.
I hope I can be as good of a mom as mine is. I hope in 27yrs from now my son will look back and say my mom is all right by me.
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