Time flies

I can't believe it's already May 7th. My first mother's day is coming up. That seems surreal because it's hard to imagine my life without Kamu so it's weird to think that there have been 26 mother's day where I didn't think how it related to me.

I appreciate my mom more now, and I've only been a mom for 7 weeks. Not for the obvious things like lack of sleep and sacrifices of the everyday, but the bigger ones that go unnoticed. I appreciate the fact that a well educated woman with potentials to be successful chose my sister and I first. My thoughts of being some big wig when I was leave college don't really matter as much. My thoughts about my job are: does it pay the bills, help us save something, and can it be flexible so I'm there for my son? I appreciate that my mom put her whole life on hold to take care of her kids. Sure she does things that she likes, but I realize in the past year my mom has started hobbies. She is learning to play the ukulele and she's taking hula lessons and I realize it wasn't that she didn't want to do that before, but she chose not to because she could spend her time with or helping her kids.

I hope I can be as good of a mom as mine is. I hope in 27yrs from now my son will look back and say my mom is all right by me.